| So let me just point out something. This guy, the jackass on the left, is a total (and I mead TOTAL) tool.
Moving on, or is it backwards? Not sure.
When you write about Ohio, Ohio writes back. Although not in direct response to what I wrote last week but more like some cosmic black hole of southern Ohio strangeness.
I got an email from an old friend from a long fucking time ago. What do you say to someone to whom you haven't had a conversation with (almost to the day) in twenty-four years?
"Hey, what's up?" Seems way too open-ended but in a way we all kind of want a sum up. A fifty-point events outline of our lives, minus all the heartache, long-winded explanations and balls out exaggerations.
Like this:
1. Graduated College
2. Moved to Ohio
3. Got Married
4. Got a Cat
5. Moved to Denver
6. Had a Baby
7. Got a Job
8. Laid Off
9. Stopped Driving
10. Got Another Job
11. Quit Job
12. Moved back to Pittsburgh
13. Got Another Job
14. Started a Magazine
15. Cat Died
16. Started Showing Photography
17. Laid Off
18. Got Another Cat
19. Moved in With Martha
20. Got Another Cat
21. Moved to DC
22. Got a Divorce
23. Got Another Job
24. Lived in Misery
25. Quit Job
26. Moved back to Pittsburgh
27. Got Another Job
28. Bought First Car
29. Started Driving
30. Moved to Butler
31. Got Another Cat
32. Got Another Job
33. Bought a House
34. Moved back to Pittsburgh
35. Father Died
36. Transferred to New York City
37. Stopped Driving
38. Sold House
39. Moved to New Jersey
40. Laid Off
41. Got Another Job
42. First Car Stolen
43. Daughter Got Cancer
44. Daughter Sent to College
45. Cat Died
46. Mother Died
47. Got Real Sick
48. Bought another House
49. Moved to Upstate New York
50. Laid Off
See then one can weave in-between the numbers all the emotional reactions that one would assume happened but not necessarily what did happen. Example, #44. Daughter Sent to College, does not mean that there was that sadness, empty nest thing. Hardly. But if I just put it on a list, anybody can assume anything they want and most people, would think the nicer things.
Another example is that I was more upset when my cat died then when my mother died. Odd? Why yes. Not normal at all, but you know, that is just the way it was. And five years later that's still kind of the way it is. What upsets me about my mother has more to do with what life was like with her, instead of actual death. My cat's death was just wretchedly sad.
But #43 Daughter Got Cancer is exactly as fucked up as sounds.
The nuts and bolts of a list like that is without knowing who we are; which after a twenty-four year absence how could you possibly know anything about anyone; our lives are nothing more than a series of events. I was here at this time and did this. Period.
It means nothing, it's not ever going to mean anything and when I'm dead, it will just be some weird chick's list.
Don't get me wrong. It was very cool to hear from him and for several days I found myself lost in memories. It's just that when something like that happens it really brings this whole time flies thing home. I guess you could say I'm in a creepy mood but I'm good. Seriously, it's all good. Or at least I'm comfortable with it all.
But how can you even explain the happiness that something like this can bring to a list.
Or this, which is downright awesome. Where do I put that on the list. Maybe between, #12 & 13 I suppose.
So for now, I don't want to think about my list. I'd rather be forcibly diverted given that we are all witnessing the end of the economic world. I think we could all use some evaporation into a healthy dose of Cosmic Slop, where things are not so fucking wicked. |
